back from the dead

good afternoon all! my apologies for the length of time between posts. life here has been crazy with work, my personal computer dying, and now i am in the middle of a family reunion weekend. none the less here is an update for you to snack on.

things are the diet front are at a stand still. right now i am bouncing between a 23lb loss to a 20 lb loss. right now leaning more toward that 20 lb. the reason for the pause break in losing is because this past week i have not been doing great on the food side (or the exercise to balance it). tuesday i had friends over and while most of the meal was on plan i had cheesy rice and stuffing. the worst thing though was i had wine! not too bad though, i went to the gym on wednesday and managed to come out right were i was before dinner. thursday night was the first night of the family stuff. this family thing means 45 minutes to get to where the events are which doesn't help on timing or if i forget my pills. plus thursday night they didn't have a whole lot of selection of on plan meals and i had beer. friday, i was good about eating all of my meals on plan, until i realized that my mom had made ribs and carmel corn. i had some of both (i can't turn down my mamas ribs!!!). i also have not been getting my 80 oz of water in. today mom and i had breakfast and for the most part i stayed on plan. i had and omelet with mushrooms, tomatoes, onions, and spinach. it really should have been more like a lunch meal but i figured i would switch lunch and breakfast.

it is now about 2:30 and i just woke up from a much needed nap and after lunch (which is VERY lite) i am going to head to the gym and try to counter balance some of the damage done over the past couple of days. i am ok if i don't lose this weekend but i really don't want to gain, that just breaks my heart. tonights dinner should be ok, we are having baked chicken and there will be veggies there.

i did want to post you with my newest issue. i decided to go shopping yesterday for a little retail therapy. i am now unsure of where i am supposed to shop in stores. all my life i have shopped in juniors plus (if they had it) and womens. now... i am at an in between size, and a whole new world of options. i literally wandered around several stores yesterday trying to figure out where i belonged. sadly... after about an hour and a half i left the mall with one shirt from lane bryant (where i will only be able to shop at a little bit longer since i am in their smallest size now) and a somewhat sad heart that i still didn't know where to go.

hating to end on a sad note though and since i can't think if a tip for today. i am leaving you with photos. i found a photo on my dads computer that was perfect for this. be prepared though it will be the only before picture unless someone else sends me some.

this is a picture taken of my sister and i at our cousin mels wedding. this photo was taken on a saturday night i started the diet that following tuesday.

this is a photo i took of myself at 20 lbs. can you see the difference yet? this is only 20lbs so imagine what the whole thing will look like!!!

happy eating all!