well the past few days have been less than stellar in the diet department. staying on plan has really been the last of my concerns. truthfully, in my head i think i deliberately tried to break plan because in a week of things that were out of my control, it was the one thing i could control. it was my one vehicle that i was driving and i decided to drive it off of a cliff. today i called the tow truck to pull it out of the ravine and get it back on track.
starting on thursday i went off plan in several ways. thursday i had beer and ice cream, no not together, i still maintained my taste buds. that alone wouldn't have been that bad, i can actually recover from that fairly quickly. then friday i had beer, no breakfast, both lunch and dinner were off plan, and i forgot to take my meds for the diet in the am. then came saturday, i started to get on plan but if i sleep in (which i did) it messes up my schedule so i try to squish it all in and end up feeling miserable. beyond that part i was good up until dinner. in honor of my staying at my parents house to dog sit, i HAD to get thai food. i ate every bite last night with a smirk on my face as if to say "screw you diet". perhaps not the best plan right? the final blow to my diet was that i also did not get my 80 oz of h2o in on thursday and friday. i could really see it by the end of friday and saturday morning when my hands were swollen.
today i got back on plan. meds as required, plan worthy meals, and minus the few extras (blast my parents for having pretzels out) i have stuck to it. i even avoided going out to get chinese because i was trying to be good. while not going in to a lot of detail the past few days have been slightly rough and in true fashion i turned to my comfort. food. they say most anorexic and bulimic people are that way because food is something they can control. they feel like they have no control over anything else but they can control how much they eat (and keep down in some cases). well the same can be said about overweight people, if not more so. i have no control over a lot of the things going on in my life so i manipulate the one thing i know i can control, i just manipulate it in the opposite way. either way, i realized that this isn't what i have planned and so i need to stick to plan.
since i am sure you are interested in knowing, the damage of the 3 day debauchery was significant but fixable. when i stepped on the scale yesterday i had gone up about 6lbs. i made sure to get in my 80 oz of water, i think i may have gone just slightly over in that. today i made sure that i ate lighter meals on plan (egg, cottage cheese, and salad) and stuck to getting my 80 oz in. when i go to bed (which will be shortly) i will have had all of the required items and about 90 oz of water. stepping on the scale earlier the numbers showed an increase of +3 instead of +6 (down 3 lbs from yesterday). for those monitoring how "rapidly" i lose my weight remember that this is all subject to a variety of things (liquid consumed, bathroom recency, clothing, and time of day). i should be back to my former weight in a few days. sadly, my staying at my parents is limiting my ability to go to the gym. oh well i will survive.
happy day light savings time everyone!
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