series of unfortunate choices

Wow a whole week since I posted last! I wish I had something great to post but unfortunately, I don't. :o(

Last week was a week filled with a "series of unfortunate choices", hence the title. It started on Wednesday when i went to the center to weigh in. I was only down .2 lbs which seemed pretty measly to me. To add insult to injury, I had been struggling with one of my dr prescribed medications not staying in my system which has some pretty un-fun side effects (vertigo off and on all day). I left the center a bit deflated and not feeling well (oh yea, nausea is another side effect of my meds not being in my body) and decided I wanted something comforting. So I went home and ate a peanut butter sandwich. I probably would have been okay with loss stats had I just had that but I decided I also needed/wanted to eat some betty crocker loaded mashed potatoes. clearly none of that is on plan and is far too many carbs. :o( so I was deflated about the less than exciting number, I was light-headed, just shot at least 2 days worth of weight loss with a binge on carbs, and NOW I feel even worse because my tummy hurts.

The next two days I couldn't decide if my stomach was unhappy with me from the over-load of carbs or still squirming from my medicine withdraw. Either way, I was limiting my food intake. I also did a bit of this I think to try to counter balance the binge from the night before. By no means starving myself, just to clarify, but just was being super picky about what I ate and not taking full portions of things. Friday when I went to weigh in more bad news... back up 1.4 lbs. Doesn't that just make you feel swell?!?!?! My own fault, I know.

Saturday, I woke up with this dread of "another day on plan". Everything started out fine and for the majority of the day I stayed on plan and ate proper portions. That night while trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my date on Sunday I began looking at cupcake shops around town. This just sounds like a bad idea right? Luckily he wasn't keen on the idea of cupcakes, but then I started looking at the artisan ice cream shop. temptation got the best of me, i hopped in the car and headed off to get ice cream. I couldn't find the place!!! Normally I would have taken this as a sign that I should just go home but my eyes then spotted a McDonalds.

First off, I don't even LIKE McDonalds!!! However, I realized that I hadn't eaten dinner yet and it was getting late and I really didn't want to cook. So I swung through the drive through. At least I got a grilled chicken sandwich but I am pretty sure as a whole that meal was a completely awful choice.

Yesterday when I woke up I had an internal conversation with myself. I reminded my head (and stomach) that we had paid good money for this program, if I stick with it the end will come sooner than if I allow myself these "little cheats", and I am stronger than these temptations!!! All day I stuck to plan and even started doing some research on new ways to spice up my cooking. I'll keep you posted on how that goes! I'm a bit scared to see what the damage is after my week but you have to pay the piper!!!

I guess the point of this post is really to explain, I (and anyone reading this) am human. I make mistakes, I make bad choices (sometimes knowingly), and I can be tempted. The important part is to get back on the wagon and keep trucking! No one ever said this was going to be easy, I guess I just forget that sometimes and this week wanted to throw an internal weight loss temper-tantrum. time to get that kid in check! :o)

Happy eating friends!